1008L 09 July 2004

So I'm reading a few new blogs today and happen upon a few websites and they are pretty damm funny. All very glib, entertaining and clever. Without apology I recognize my stuff here isn't nearly as easy to read. I could try to be funnier, and with some effort probably could be more charming but I'm not sure that I will. I suppose I'm susceptible to the seductive force of "the funny/charming one". Have you ever been at a cocktail party, standing in a circle of friends and as your funnier, more charismatic, charming friend is holding court you get an impulse to springboard off their last comment with your own joke, which you imagine will result in a cacophony of laughter and esteem? I suppose I chalk that up to immaturity and rather than induldge the impulse, I typically accept my relative lower level of "life of the party" charm and take a quiet pride in being good at understanding others, engaging in civilized debate, being worldly and considerate. Oh and being an oft complemented lay. I enjoy making others feel good, feel happy, and cracking someone up is immediate gratification. I also envy the rebellion that a "zany" person exhibits by living their life differently. But at the end of the day, I'm satisfied being an acquired taste, and hope that the investment necessary to enjoy my company is ultimately rewarding in more complex and lasting ways.


in my head: tommy the cat by primus from sailing the seas of cheese:
SAY baby do you want to lie down with me?
SAY baby do you want to lay down by MY side uh baby do you want to lay down with me,
SAY BABY?
SAY bay-BAAY!